Remember

I can feel it
this slow, passionate burning deep within.
Comforting as it is,
it is a never ending reminder of how I long for
You.

A feeling long past,
thrown away into distant memory
finally recovered when all was lost
as a reminder of what once was.

Whispers leave traces
to write across the wall
essence of the feeling.

The feeling long lost
now to be remembered:

Recognized instantly as love.

How Do I Tell You I Love You?

Stop. Inhale. Exhale. Go. Why yes, we are together.
It's the moments like these I'll cherish
forever. You made my breath stop with that glorious green
hidden in your eyes. As you smile, the shimmer
grows. My heart is faltering. Fancy that. You're so beautiful!
When I'm with you my heart is complete.

Like yin and yang, we are both part of one. We need the other to be complete.
I swear, when I'm with you the world stops. When we're together
the universe pauses and holds its breath in suspense. It's beautiful,
isn't it? Everything that is you is cherished
by everything that is me. I'm hypnotized by the shimmering
life force you release. The green

of life is the green
of your eyes. It's amazing how your eyes and your smile completely
aroused my slumbering heart fro the shimmering
depths of death. Deceptive, no? But when we're together
my heart beats every lost beat, cherishing
the wonderful, blissful, beautiful

moment when I see you. You really are beautiful.
You have a green
thumb, only it tantalized my love to grow. I cherish
you, this feeling, this joy, because it makes me complete.
I'm amazed by how we're bound together.
These tears that shimmer

on my face shimmer
dimly in comparison with your beautiful
self. The sense of togetherness
we have is amazing. That hint of green
seen as a spark of life is only the beginning of our love. Once completed,
well, will it ever be? Our love grows endlessly, cherished

and cared for by both you and me. I cherish
you and you cherish me, too. The sun is but a shimmer
of light in comparison to you completing
me. We have such an amazing beauty
that even gods have to do a double take. Green?
It is the color for you and I together.

I cherish you and your beautiful
self. I still falter in breath as I see the shimmering green
of your eyes. Without each other we aren't complete. We belong together.

Rebirth

Cold. Quiet. Black.
Nothing stirs,
Nothing lives,
The charred remains
Scatter.

Obsolete. Bleak. Despair.
Emptiness alone
Could break
The tired soul
Completely.

Hope. Doesn't. Exist.
Or so
It seems.
Could that be
Light?

Hinting. Peaking. Growing.
Slowly now,
Increasingly so,
The light is
Spreading.

Bright. Strong. Blinding.
Siezing pieces.
Begin rebuilding.
The world is
Healing.

Life. Love. Peace.
Calm serenity
Teaming life
Newly discovered love
Reigns.

The Change in Me

It's my heart
Of which you seek
Yet all of me
Is what you have
Every truth
Every lie
Every wall
To crumble down

This change of heart
To learn and grow
It's strength to move
The happiness is spreading
Within me is changing
It's because of you

I sing to you
My broken tune
Of love and peace
Just you and me

What is it about you
That makes me feel
The way I do
I'm blinded by my heart
I move to you
Following the footsteps of love
To burn with desire
And melt within.

I'm falling for you
Faster and faster
But I can fly
The happiness is spreading
Within me is changing
And it's because of you

I sing to you
My broken tune
Of love and peace
Just you and me

My soul to love
My being to feel
I love you
This is real


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So this I wrote. I have music for the majority of it (vocals wise) and my boyfriend is working on accompanying guitar. I don't know how it's going to turn out, but it's all good. So I'm sharing. =]

Love Can Change Everything

All of me is filled with joy
rooted deep within my heart.
Ic an feel it burning
with the fiery passion
I ahve for you. This smile
won't leave my face. Can I share?

I know that you and I share.
Our joy
is contageous. Yet still I smile.
I'm elated - my heart
isn't broken. Your passion
set me free. Though I burn,

I don't mind, for I burn
for you. The feeling is shared
and all know of our passion.
I'm joyous.
And why not? My heart
belongs to you. So I smile.

Who wouldn't? Smiling
is the best way the world can see my burning
heart
in it's desire for you. I want to share
the feeling with everyone because joy
alongside passion

can change the world. The passion
is overwhelming. So I smile
and the joy
spreads. The burn
is beyond my heart, having been shared
with you and others alike. My heart

beats strong and in tune to the sound of your heat.
We've sparked life to the world with our passion
that is shared
between us. The world is all smiles
we started with our burning,
fiery joy.

It's the feeling in my heart that makes me smile,
it's the passion that makes me burn,
and by sharing it we've shown the world joy.

Healing

My heart is pounding,
beating, pulsing, throbbing
to the same rhythmic tune.
It echoes back what I already know
and defines it into something pure.
It has no word,
no definition to constrain,
yet it is still understood.
It causes my quiet glow
that lurks in all I do,
the cause of my never-ending smile.
It makes my heart gallop in delight,
singing to the universe and back.
It is,
without a doubt,
My love for you.

Change of Existence

You.
What to say of you?
My world was dead
before you entered my life
yet now I am blinded
by the beauty you've shown me.
Life?
It'll never be the same.
I feel I've lived a half existence until
now.
Do you know why?
It's because of
YOU.

Free Association Writing

So here's what happened. I decided that I would try out Freud's idea of free association writing. Well, it came out pretty interesting and fairly intense, but a lot of it was poetry of sorts. It was very thought provoking to me and maybe you'll find it the same. So I have decided that I will share a portion of it with you. I've changed the spelling errors but other than that I'm typing it exactly as I wrote it.

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invisible motion to be lost in thought of great artistic memory yet forgotten by bittersweet love to turn to greed anger and hate

what comes now is as impassive as dark night always watching but never seeing never believing tragedy

what lies in words but can't be found might as well drown as the poet speaks literal words of death to be forgotten once more on tragic memory

what of me do you seek? a lost tangle of lies and deceit

better to end up dead than in someone else's bed

so hurt burned charred disgraced but never again to win a race

you'll never know never feel never see what it is to make me me

these cuts that grow blood will bring new life for only life can come from death only death from life

do you like what you see? this tragic mystery on love's death bed? heart grew cold as stone when left alone. can't love, can't breathe can't feel and there's nothing left to feel

you're dead now and you can feel it the empty tears of nothing froze you, too too long I've lived too long I've died and never been seen by you nor I I'm broken beyond repair

maybe he can see that

do you know? i know you feel something isn't right. maybe drugs or parasites

he's being eaten alive from the inside and we both know he'll never survive without your or I

but he lies hurts us breaks us makes us cold again and never can we be the same again

love him we do, we'll never stop but trust is yet a different thing for that can easily pass

don't read into the words as literal truth but find the secrets written behind. awaken and read and you will see what is left of you and me.

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Again, that's only a piece of what I wrote. It came out pretty interesting to me so I decided it was worth sharing. =]

A Tragic Epitaph on Love's Lullaby

To be in my shadow
-is lonely.
But is it even mine?
My shadow and yours
Were once joined as one,
But now we're apart.
I gave you my heart.
You still have a piece
-did you know?-
I've replaced that piece
With something new
But I know
The original still exists
-away from me-
I'm now stuck wondering
If maybe it went both ways,
Or did you take yours back?
I've moved on
But a part of me will always
Love you
It makes me sad
To think I lost you.
You were my life, my love,
my friend.
I don't know where we stand now.
I don't know where we're going.
But in the end,
I hope the most
That we can still be friends.

Lovers

That soft, tingly feeling,
the one created by your hand,
eases my being
to quiet slumber.

My head rests
soundlessly
on your warm shoulder
as you caress my face again.

Love,
that's what it boils down to.
I will never release
this epic feeling of hope.