So here's what happened. I decided that I would try out Freud's idea of free association writing. Well, it came out pretty interesting and fairly intense, but a lot of it was poetry of sorts. It was very thought provoking to me and maybe you'll find it the same. So I have decided that I will share a portion of it with you. I've changed the spelling errors but other than that I'm typing it exactly as I wrote it.
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invisible motion to be lost in thought of great artistic memory yet forgotten by bittersweet love to turn to greed anger and hate
what comes now is as impassive as dark night always watching but never seeing never believing tragedy
what lies in words but can't be found might as well drown as the poet speaks literal words of death to be forgotten once more on tragic memory
what of me do you seek? a lost tangle of lies and deceit
better to end up dead than in someone else's bed
so hurt burned charred disgraced but never again to win a race
you'll never know never feel never see what it is to make me me
these cuts that grow blood will bring new life for only life can come from death only death from life
do you like what you see? this tragic mystery on love's death bed? heart grew cold as stone when left alone. can't love, can't breathe can't feel and there's nothing left to feel
you're dead now and you can feel it the empty tears of nothing froze you, too too long I've lived too long I've died and never been seen by you nor I I'm broken beyond repair
maybe he can see that
do you know? i know you feel something isn't right. maybe drugs or parasites
he's being eaten alive from the inside and we both know he'll never survive without your or I
but he lies hurts us breaks us makes us cold again and never can we be the same again
love him we do, we'll never stop but trust is yet a different thing for that can easily pass
don't read into the words as literal truth but find the secrets written behind. awaken and read and you will see what is left of you and me.
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Again, that's only a piece of what I wrote. It came out pretty interesting to me so I decided it was worth sharing. =]
