Trapped in a Torture Chamber Part I

I'm dead. I just don't know it yet. Everything is black. I can't feel. I can't move. I must be dead. I don't understand. What happened? Was I sleeping? I don't remember. What do I remember? Uhg, what is this fog? Why do I feel like I'm swimming in molasses? Thinking shouldn't be so difficult. Maybe it's not molasses, maybe it's tar. Or solidifyng cement. Why can't I remember?

Car? Driving? Was I driving? School. I was at school. I can't think. Class, then nothing. At least there's no pain. But I'm trapped in this nothingness. If this is death I've been screwed. It's not much better than life. Just a load of nothing deep within a sea of nothing. Fuck.

Aw shit! What the hell is that?! Sound? Dammit, I'm not dead! But I can't speak. I can't move. Why can I hear? Is that - - is that someone...crying? Who would be crying in my ocean of black? Certainly not me; I can't move or speak or breathe or feel. Uhg. All this effort to drift in this nightmare. Fuck it. Blackness, take me home.

Short Story!!!

Holy canoly!!! I'm writing a short story!!! I will probably put it up in bits and pieces. You'll have to forgive me for the crappy writing, short stories are not my forte. But, I was hit with the force of writing and it knocked me off my feet. So now I've been writing during available moments (lost inbetween times of other necessary activites *sniff*) and working to finish the story because *shockingly* I don't even know what's going on or where it's going. And I'm dying to know how it plays out. So I have to write. But yes, stay tuned and look for a short story because I loves it and hopefully you will enjoy it, too ^.^

Follow the Unknown

Seek beauty
And all between
For life and death is
Nothing.
Forgetful of all
Yet uniquely aware
Blinded by knowledge
To sweep away
Lost yet not
Who knows
Where this path goes
Follow blindly,
Faithfully,
And trust the path
To where it goes
Unknown
Unseen
Yet soon to learn
The hidden answers

Rebirth

Cold. Quiet. Black.
Nothing stirs,
Nothing lives,
The charred remains
Scatter.

Obsolete. Bleak. Despair.
Emptiness alone
Could break
The tired soul
Completely.

Hope. Doesn't. Exist.
Or so
It seems.
Could that be
Light?

Hinting. Peaking. Growing.
Slowly now,
Increasingly so,
The light is
Spreading.

Bright. Strong. Blinding.
Siezing pieces.
Begin rebuilding.
The world is
Healing.

Life. Love. Peace.
Calm serenity
Teaming life
Newly discovered love
Reigns.

The Change in Me

It's my heart
Of which you seek
Yet all of me
Is what you have
Every truth
Every lie
Every wall
To crumble down

This change of heart
To learn and grow
It's strength to move
The happiness is spreading
Within me is changing
It's because of you

I sing to you
My broken tune
Of love and peace
Just you and me

What is it about you
That makes me feel
The way I do
I'm blinded by my heart
I move to you
Following the footsteps of love
To burn with desire
And melt within.

I'm falling for you
Faster and faster
But I can fly
The happiness is spreading
Within me is changing
And it's because of you

I sing to you
My broken tune
Of love and peace
Just you and me

My soul to love
My being to feel
I love you
This is real


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So this I wrote. I have music for the majority of it (vocals wise) and my boyfriend is working on accompanying guitar. I don't know how it's going to turn out, but it's all good. So I'm sharing. =]

Love Can Change Everything

All of me is filled with joy
rooted deep within my heart.
Ic an feel it burning
with the fiery passion
I ahve for you. This smile
won't leave my face. Can I share?

I know that you and I share.
Our joy
is contageous. Yet still I smile.
I'm elated - my heart
isn't broken. Your passion
set me free. Though I burn,

I don't mind, for I burn
for you. The feeling is shared
and all know of our passion.
I'm joyous.
And why not? My heart
belongs to you. So I smile.

Who wouldn't? Smiling
is the best way the world can see my burning
heart
in it's desire for you. I want to share
the feeling with everyone because joy
alongside passion

can change the world. The passion
is overwhelming. So I smile
and the joy
spreads. The burn
is beyond my heart, having been shared
with you and others alike. My heart

beats strong and in tune to the sound of your heat.
We've sparked life to the world with our passion
that is shared
between us. The world is all smiles
we started with our burning,
fiery joy.

It's the feeling in my heart that makes me smile,
it's the passion that makes me burn,
and by sharing it we've shown the world joy.

Healing

My heart is pounding,
beating, pulsing, throbbing
to the same rhythmic tune.
It echoes back what I already know
and defines it into something pure.
It has no word,
no definition to constrain,
yet it is still understood.
It causes my quiet glow
that lurks in all I do,
the cause of my never-ending smile.
It makes my heart gallop in delight,
singing to the universe and back.
It is,
without a doubt,
My love for you.

Change of Existence

You.
What to say of you?
My world was dead
before you entered my life
yet now I am blinded
by the beauty you've shown me.
Life?
It'll never be the same.
I feel I've lived a half existence until
now.
Do you know why?
It's because of
YOU.

Life

Seeping water breathes
Across an enclosed seed
Lying beneath the surface.
A weary eye opes
To see the rising sun,
And, slowly uncurling,
Rises toward the light
Spreading out to receive
Loving rays of life.

Time

Time
A dispersion of meaningless
Empty measurements.
It can't be contained
Nor can it be held.
Time is nothing -
Just a quiet lie
To push through life.