A Tragic Epitaph on Love's Lullaby

To be in my shadow
-is lonely.
But is it even mine?
My shadow and yours
Were once joined as one,
But now we're apart.
I gave you my heart.
You still have a piece
-did you know?-
I've replaced that piece
With something new
But I know
The original still exists
-away from me-
I'm now stuck wondering
If maybe it went both ways,
Or did you take yours back?
I've moved on
But a part of me will always
Love you
It makes me sad
To think I lost you.
You were my life, my love,
my friend.
I don't know where we stand now.
I don't know where we're going.
But in the end,
I hope the most
That we can still be friends.

Lovers

That soft, tingly feeling,
the one created by your hand,
eases my being
to quiet slumber.

My head rests
soundlessly
on your warm shoulder
as you caress my face again.

Love,
that's what it boils down to.
I will never release
this epic feeling of hope.

Healing

Silent musings
from troubled days,
empty memories
will never fade.
Slumbering emotions
come to pass
but soon they'll dissolve
into nothing but ash.
Eyes open to blinding light,
suddenly the world
is held in sight.
A cold, dead heart
heated by summer rays,
this new awakening
for a new day.

The Liar

I lie,
I know I do.
My lie is simple -
my lie is that I'm okay.

My being radiates joy
but it is merely the costume
-the prop-
for the play.

My sorrow runs deep
and my lie only covers
surface space.
You only see the lie.

I want to heal,
to be honest again,
but I don't know how
to make the lie the truth.

Companionship to heal my heart,
or something to come from within
or maybe a needed closure
with the creator,

the one who makes me lie.
I lie to hid my broken heart,
the heart that can't seem to heal,
but I lie to say I'm okay.

It makes me sad
to see you believe,
but maybe it would hurt more
if you were to know the truth.

Falling For You

Passion, desire, loneliness,
Yes, I understand
I know you feel it, too.
The physical pain
Only worsens
As I find myself
pining
After you.

I think I love you.
Did you notice?
I fall for you
Faster and harder
With every passing day.
It's killing me.
-I'm dying-
To be away from you.

It's your touch,
I think,
That makes me believe
That you may actually
Love me
Too.
-I'm still dreaming-
Are we meant to be?

Broken

You cut me deep,
Deeper than you know.
Most days I forget
-You hardly matter now-
But it's the times like now
That the pain comes back
the hardest

I'm hurting.
I still don't understand.
What made the hate?
You said you never loved me.
-I hope that's a lie-
But I wonder how that can be true.
All I ever did was for you.

I don't understand.
I don't think I ever will.
You hate me now.
What can I do?
I gave you everything
-"Stupidly," is what you'd say-
I thought I knew you...

I guess I was wrong.
I suppose I'll go forgotten,
Left to fade like a bad dream.
I want to say I don't care,
But I can't lie anymore.
I want to cry
-There's no tears left to shed-

Just so you know

I am going to Florida today, and I will be gone for at least ten days. That means at least ten days until I post again. I know I don't post much (mainly because my creative energy has not been flowing) but I will do my best to write some on this trip and post it up for you to read.

Thanks a bunch,

Krista

Heartbreak

Blind.
Numb and blind.
The dull, tingly,
empty abyss of
-nothingness-
it's left me dead inside.

I'm blind;
You can't see that
-of course not-
but my existance has been
-nullified.
I'm left blind.

Empty.
Hollow.
I guess you can confirm:
Yes, that's me
-if nothingness is tangible-
but yes. I'm bleak.

Tragic. Dead. Nothing.
I'm wandering,
broken inside
-lonely-
I just want to be
Loved.

Leap of Faith

It's a dream,
a dream of peace.
My question stands,
is the dream worth the fall?
I'm scared,
but there's nothing to loose.
Hold on to me tight,
for I don't want to be alone
if I fall.
I toe the edge
and hold my breath
when a gust of wind
pushes me forward.
The rush is slowing
much to soon
and I come to see
that I can fly.

The Crimson Death

There, upon your head, a drop of sunshine
trickles down your solemn face. I see that quiet explosion
behind your eye, yes, that silent laughter
that created the tears.
Your soul is cleansing itself with a revelation of crimson
and gold.

I can see that fleck of gold
reflecting in your eye like a pool of sunshine
ready and waiting for someone to see. You cannot hide behind your crimson
mask for long. Soon, very soon, the explosion
will reveal you in invisible tears.
This is where the laughter

lies. Your hatred for the world drips off your tongue in bitter sweet laughter,
melting the world before you as molten gold
would press upon us. How many tears
have slid down your face in anguish for what the man who "loved" you did? Sunshine
doesn't exist for you now, only the never-ending explosion
of chaos running through those crimson

vessels. The disturbing pleasure those crimson
pools caused you, the traces of laughter
still on your face, no one knew of that silenced explosion
for you hid it well in a cast of gold.
The betraying sunshine
has left you to suffocate in an empty universe of tears.

I remember when the tears
fell, the hurt that was scrawled in crimson
letters of death across a mirror where sunshine
masked the tragedy. The laughter
and care-free view of life as gold
would only die in the explosion

erupting from you. All that remains from the explosion
are the tears,
falling down our faces faster than a river of gold.
I saw the crimson
rifts that tore apart your body. Here is where the laughter
died. I watch as the sunshine

vanishes. I can see the traces of the explosion lingering in your crimson
eyes. All the tears have dried with no trace of laughter
left. I've lost myself in a golden lie, for no longer is there sunshine.

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Okay, it's severely depressing and I probably wouldn't have posted this one first except for the fact that it's the only poem that I've rewritten several times to get it absolutely perfect. I love this one, but I'm not sure if people understand what happened. Leave a comment for ideas on what you think happened because I have the vision in my head but I'm not sure if I was too vague in my writing for the audience to figure out what happened. All comments are greatly appreciated =]