Remember

I can feel it
this slow, passionate burning deep within.
Comforting as it is,
it is a never ending reminder of how I long for
You.

A feeling long past,
thrown away into distant memory
finally recovered when all was lost
as a reminder of what once was.

Whispers leave traces
to write across the wall
essence of the feeling.

The feeling long lost
now to be remembered:

Recognized instantly as love.

Depression

The burn that knows no fear
Haunts the back of my mind
Pulling my heart towards the daunting black
The black that pulls and tears and destroys
Yet holds you close to whisper
Deceitful lies of comfort
Pushing you into the abyss
With no safety rope to pull you back
So you're left with nothing to hold on to
As the black swallows you whole
And all you can remember is that cursed burn
That brought you in the first place
All that's heard is reverberating laughter
Emitted from the black
No longer comforting but terrifying
Wondering how long and how far you'll fall
Before anyone finds you
If they do
Before you hit the ground
The only companion left is the tears
Yet they remind you that no one knows or cares
And you long for the ground's approach
So that it can finally quench
That horrendous burn
Haunting your mind
As your heart is engulfed by the black

Despondence

Sleeping dreams trapped in memory
Without the inclination of ever moving forward
But shall never look back
The truth of words exists
But to mind them at all is open admittance
That soon you shall fall.

Unkept secrets cause the falter
The stumble, the mistake, the cause
To cause the end and watch it all
Burn
Falling flames to the ground
Shattering, scattering, dispersed.

Blinded by shock and fear
Forgetful or not, try as you will
Destruction
Is all you can feel
For hurt is all that's left to feel
Just broken, unable to heal.

Just imagine the severity
If feeling were to return
The trauma of mental stability shattered
And any sense of hope or faith or love vanishes
Divulged in no one as the pain eats away,
Devouring from the inside.

Gone. Silence. Nothing. Empty.
A hollow casing of what you once were
Tragedy of misery
Left alone to suffer no more
Just fade into nothingness,
A pitiful existence.

Random Thing of Writing During Class Today

Subliminal transendence
Disappears behind a veil
Of closed doors
Built by lies
To hide the truth
In broken dreams
Where madness stirs
And chaos reigns
With nothing more
Than blinding fear
To debilitate
The mindless and soulless
Empty beings

Follow the Unknown

Seek beauty
And all between
For life and death is
Nothing.
Forgetful of all
Yet uniquely aware
Blinded by knowledge
To sweep away
Lost yet not
Who knows
Where this path goes
Follow blindly,
Faithfully,
And trust the path
To where it goes
Unknown
Unseen
Yet soon to learn
The hidden answers

Rebirth

Cold. Quiet. Black.
Nothing stirs,
Nothing lives,
The charred remains
Scatter.

Obsolete. Bleak. Despair.
Emptiness alone
Could break
The tired soul
Completely.

Hope. Doesn't. Exist.
Or so
It seems.
Could that be
Light?

Hinting. Peaking. Growing.
Slowly now,
Increasingly so,
The light is
Spreading.

Bright. Strong. Blinding.
Siezing pieces.
Begin rebuilding.
The world is
Healing.

Life. Love. Peace.
Calm serenity
Teaming life
Newly discovered love
Reigns.

Healing

My heart is pounding,
beating, pulsing, throbbing
to the same rhythmic tune.
It echoes back what I already know
and defines it into something pure.
It has no word,
no definition to constrain,
yet it is still understood.
It causes my quiet glow
that lurks in all I do,
the cause of my never-ending smile.
It makes my heart gallop in delight,
singing to the universe and back.
It is,
without a doubt,
My love for you.

Change of Existence

You.
What to say of you?
My world was dead
before you entered my life
yet now I am blinded
by the beauty you've shown me.
Life?
It'll never be the same.
I feel I've lived a half existence until
now.
Do you know why?
It's because of
YOU.

Life

Seeping water breathes
Across an enclosed seed
Lying beneath the surface.
A weary eye opes
To see the rising sun,
And, slowly uncurling,
Rises toward the light
Spreading out to receive
Loving rays of life.

Time

Time
A dispersion of meaningless
Empty measurements.
It can't be contained
Nor can it be held.
Time is nothing -
Just a quiet lie
To push through life.

Let's Play

Dealing with death
Is a dangerous game;
Fun to play,
But unlikely to win.
The stakes are high,
But the rewards are
Exceptional.
To win would be
Starting over.
To lose would be
The end of everything.
Come play if you like,
But know the price
Of this dangerous game
You chose to play.

Dolls

Bleeding through unseeing eyes
Tear streaked lines
Fall down the iced face
It cannot feel
It can only wait
As the tides of time
Erase it from life

Drowning

Fighting against the flow,
swimming upstream,
why am I still fighting?

I'm losing needed strength;
can I let go?
I'm tired of fighting.

I'm drowning in a sea of life,
losing the will to live.
I'm blinded by the dark water.

What is the point of staying here
when I am kept under,
never again to breathe the air?

My heart, my lungs, living in endless pain,
my strength is faltering again.
The cover that blinds is bound to my soul.

I want to keep going, to keep fighting,
but my body can't keep it up.
My mind is clouding as I stay under.

My heart beat is slowing,
my strength is gone,
and I fall into sleep.

Solitude

Slumbering is my broken heart
Never shall it be whole again
Lost,
Never to be found again.
My bliss is nothing more
Than a faded memory
Having left me to die
Alone.

Trickery

The fallen beast
lays hiding.

Tricksy and false,
the quiet beast lies
waiting.

Tricked to believe
a false injury,
the beast lies
waiting.

The poor, helpless prey
doesn't see the trick
until
the sneaky beast
attacks in anticipation.

Sleeping Beauty

Sleeping beauty,
her soul long gone;
Sleeping Beauty
was left alone.

Mistaken for dead,
she was left forgotten;
mistaken for dead,
passed by lesser men.

Quietly sleeping,
Beauty was stolen;
quietly sleeping,
her being was shaken.

Never to awake,
Sleeping Beauty with stay,
never to awake,
she'll never see the day.

A Tragic Epitaph on Love's Lullaby

To be in my shadow
-is lonely.
But is it even mine?
My shadow and yours
Were once joined as one,
But now we're apart.
I gave you my heart.
You still have a piece
-did you know?-
I've replaced that piece
With something new
But I know
The original still exists
-away from me-
I'm now stuck wondering
If maybe it went both ways,
Or did you take yours back?
I've moved on
But a part of me will always
Love you
It makes me sad
To think I lost you.
You were my life, my love,
my friend.
I don't know where we stand now.
I don't know where we're going.
But in the end,
I hope the most
That we can still be friends.

Lovers

That soft, tingly feeling,
the one created by your hand,
eases my being
to quiet slumber.

My head rests
soundlessly
on your warm shoulder
as you caress my face again.

Love,
that's what it boils down to.
I will never release
this epic feeling of hope.

Healing

Silent musings
from troubled days,
empty memories
will never fade.
Slumbering emotions
come to pass
but soon they'll dissolve
into nothing but ash.
Eyes open to blinding light,
suddenly the world
is held in sight.
A cold, dead heart
heated by summer rays,
this new awakening
for a new day.

The Liar

I lie,
I know I do.
My lie is simple -
my lie is that I'm okay.

My being radiates joy
but it is merely the costume
-the prop-
for the play.

My sorrow runs deep
and my lie only covers
surface space.
You only see the lie.

I want to heal,
to be honest again,
but I don't know how
to make the lie the truth.

Companionship to heal my heart,
or something to come from within
or maybe a needed closure
with the creator,

the one who makes me lie.
I lie to hid my broken heart,
the heart that can't seem to heal,
but I lie to say I'm okay.

It makes me sad
to see you believe,
but maybe it would hurt more
if you were to know the truth.